for the record,
although i stopped training, I DID run the race for the cure in Akron on July 28 with my cousin Brooke, Rychele and Dani. It was AWESOME.

Day 13-14

Unfortunately I am loosing inspiration and motivation to run this race. 

Some people are born runners, some people force themselves. I force. I think it does more damage to my legs then it for good for my body.

My shin bones will forever separate from my muscles, and my joint in my knee will forever be all fucked up. 

So today and yesterday I did not run. 

Oh well. 

Day 12

I worked today, planned and administrated a surprise birthday party for Frank's mom. That was interesting because out of nowhere she decided she wanted to go to Matus Winery (Where we had planned her party) and she invited everyone that we invited so that was retarded, but we had everyone tell her "no". LOL. Either way she was happy. So before that party I had to get my run in.

I ran 1 mile while Rychele and I watched Game of Thrones (best show ever) then I got irritated and just wanted to watch the show while sitting! Rychele said just go a mile and a half but the driving force behind me made me continue on and run the second mile at 6mph. I finished, attempted to stop sweating and go get in the shower.

The run felt great but the whole night my legs hurt really bad. Shin Splinting.

Hopefully it sods off.

Day 11

I did not run today due to everyone yelling at me to take a day off.
So I did.
Because I felt like crap.

Day 10

I had an absurdly big day today! I worked with Rychele in her tomato green house, learned a lot, and had a great time! By noon I was exhausted! 

From standing and squatting in the greenhouse, my thighs were sore. And I am sore in general from running, and everyone is yelling at me to take a day off, so I did today. Although I did run a half of a mile, just to keep my mindset. 

I went through Frank's box of stuff he sent home today. I miss him :( 

I hope tomorrow I don't die running. I am getting kind of sick of it already, but I am probably being just a grump... As usual.

Xx,

Jz

Day 9

Day 9 of running and 9 days without hearing from Frank. This whole navy/bootcamp/military thing is a whole lot harder than I expected. Especially while preparing to go to London. With due dates and money and classes and letters I feel like I am on a roller coaster from hell. But it has a good destination. 

Today was fun, Rychele and I spent the afternoon in Sandusky, had lunch and did a spot of shopping. I bought a pair of bright pink running capris for the race. They were only $10! Horay for TJ Maxx. 

By the time I got to run, I had a half a glass of wine in my stomach. Causing me to stop and belch at 1.2 miles. 

I get impatient while running. I feel like my goal is so far away. Once I get to 1.5 it is ok because I am almost finished. I finished at 2.1 today because I stopped for my burps... Lol

I am afraid to run outside. 

Too bad the race isn't on a giant treadmill? Or those things that are in the airport that make you walk faster without looking like a bafoone. 

I miss frank and I wish I wasn't so broke. But we all have to go through trials in life. At least I can go to his graduation. 

I just wish he could write to me. 

Xx,

Jz

Week 2 Day 8

On my way home from work today, I categorized today as a shit day. Work was unpleasant, I still hadn't heard from Frank, I was tired, and I just wanted to be a grump.

I stopped at Rycheles and had a chat with her, got some tomatoes and blue berries, and went home. I chatted with my mom about how no one notices any of the good things you do, but they will notice, and ridicule the one thing, that may not even be bad, but is at least, half bad. Its a viscous negative world out there, and the sooner one learns to deal with it, the better.

I had a yogurt and some blue berries, then realized I cannot run on an undigested stomach. So I went down to sit on my butt, and start watching Game of Thrones. What a great show! It is very intriguing. The Queen is a bitch, but what else is new.

After the first episode, I gathered enough willpower to run.

So I hopped on the treadmill, and started the second episode and began running at a 5mph pace. I ran one mile in about 12 minutes, and since I was not overly depleted of oxygen, I boosted it to 5.5mph for the second mile.

Around 1.3 miles, I got extremely discouraged and rather down on myself because, as usual, I just wanted to be done! Then, I got a text messaged from Frank's recruiter telling me that Frank's projected graduation date is August 30th!

It was the best news I have had all week! I may only get to see Frank for 12 hours, but that is 12 hours more than I would have if not. I am so happy to be able to go to see him graduate Navy boot camp! After receiving that news, I almost cried because I am a sap, but then I just used the positive energy to finish my last mile!

After my run I felt great! I sweated a lot, but that was awesome because sweating is good!

In our darkest hours, and after the trails, God provides for us! I am so thankful for this news today!

Tomorrow I will embark on another 2 mile stretch!

Xx,

Jz